I'm constantly using another persons happiness againsit me.
Their relationship is better than mine, she's prettier, they can eat a 20 PC chicken nugget box without looking like a complete slob, Jonny would like me a lot more if I looked/acted like her. It never ends, my mind is this black hole & once I'm sucked in, it takes me a while to snap out of it-- or extra cheesy cheese fries :D hehe, what my problem is, is that I forget these people have insecurities & flaws just like me. That it may take them a while to get out of bed and say that their a fucking bad ass 5 times before finally opening their eyes, just like me.
I have gotten so used to the idea that I'm the only human miserable. That I'm the only teen mom that's racked up more debt than a bored Beverly Hills housewife. Point is, we need to stop using it as a loaded gun pointed at our head. We need to look at every person we envy and see past this perfect facade we've made up for them. They aren't perfect, we aren't perfect.
I'm trying to learn and appreciate someone else's happiness & blessings, along with acknowledging mine.
Also, second point--
We're all fucking badasses.
Now come join me and let me tell you you're pretty, while you feed me chicken nuggets.. All 20 of them :P
On a much brighter note, I went to another check up for Baby J today! He was lounging in my stomach with his feet swinging back & forth, as if he was chilling on a beach with a NON-ACHOLIC (mommy proofing Baby j's vacay) piña colada in his hand, The doctor told me he is so healthy & I'm healthy. His heartbeat is strong, I nearly wanted to cry. I JUST WANNA SNUGGLE HIM AND GIVE HIM KISSES THEN FAST FOWARD TO WHEN THATS EMBARRASING FOR HIM & LAUGH.
EmbraceYourSelf xoxo
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